Humans

I really wonder how could some humans be so sensitive and brainless... Every action a stranger made or word that spoke unknowingly, can be phrased as harmful comments or action to someone... It is a total brainless act, how could anyone link everything a person does or say to oneself when you don't even know the speaker or the person who did the action at all...

Seriously, why is human being overly sensitive about everything... I don't own you anything and does not have to apologize to you (a pathetic person who doesn't has a brain at all)... I wonder how are you going to teach your kids to be a better person in the future with this kinda personality you are having now... I really pity you as I doubt you have experienced true love and care before or maybe you don't even understand what are they...

God bless everyone...

The start of my new career...

Graduation ceremony is around the corner, registered for everything which are required for the ceremony and done... 3 years had passed by like the speed of lighting which I can barely react to it yet... And here I am, graduating from TP with a diploma in AFSN... Seriously time really flies in a blink of eyes... Everyone is going on to their different path in life and I am missing the every moments I have spent in TP... Being a student is totally different from being out there working as you have the luxury of almost everything...

Gotten a job at Gleneagles hospital, the position is called clinical technologist... It is a thing which I always wanted to do, able to work as a healthcare professional is my ambition so it is kinda good deal for me... Thanks Esther for introducing me this good deal... Commencing my first day of work on next mon, mixed emotions yup... I will do my best and do it well... God Bless me...

Meeting up and Chatting away....

Met Melissa last night for dinner and did some catching up with her after SOOOO long... We have been talking about wanting to meet each other like half a year ago i think (after my SIP), that was SOOO long... NVM, finally we were able to meet each other last night... During our dinner session, I met siew ling it was such a coincidence to see her there and she has treated us free drinks hahaha, Thanks... Mel and I chatted tons and tons of stuff and she filled me in with the latest news about the department... Complicated as usual but it is still fun as usual, the girls there just can't stop cracking a joke almost every single day hahaha... Mel has been transferred to cytogenetics department to work with chromosomes and samples, lab coat days (I am missing it now)... No more pretty pretty hahaha...

I valued the advices and guidance you have given me... Thanks for helping me so much and I really appreciate it... Let's hope that my application will pass... Meet up soon hehehe...

Art Of Love

Ideas of writing keep on coming into my brain, I haven't been writing much lately as I am too busy and without an inspiration to write anything.... I think this is the way which I can really relax my mind from everything, am I odd??? Search me, take it or leave it....

Crashed and burned
Fell and Stumbled
Thinking of letting go
Thinking of giving up
Where can I turn to
Where is the next stop
Standing at the cross road
Which gives no sign
Faith is gone
Hope is crashed
There you are
Giving me a hand
In the nick of time
Whispering words of wisdom
Giving me the strength to move on
The art of love
I am still learning
Trying not to mess up
Ain't no giving up
The past holds me no more
I will be free....

Torn between what reason says

I am not feeling well, just literally not feeling too well after knowing everything... My mind is in a mess, the things i have predicted and hoped so hard for it being just a mere illusion i am having is actually happening... I'm in a total speechless mode now, I am sorry to say that... I have been repeating myself for the countless times, in hoping you will get my words and retreat from this nasty situation you are in... However, it just doesn't seem to work at all as you chose to go your way and pretend problems never exist from the very start... Its kinda hurt to hear you saying things that you shouldn't be saying about yourself and things you have done... I know it was very hard to make a decision when you are being driven by feelings and devils in your brain, its been tough for you and I understand...

You have assured me with your words countless times saying you will heed my words but nothing seem to be done yet... Again, you have said the same thing and I am having my doubts on that... Will you do the things you SHOULD be doing now or will you go back to the old tracks, walking aimlessly and pretend nothing ever happened at all??? PLEASE do what is BEST for you at least ONCE, don't drown yourself into this endless sorrow... I will give you my respect on any decision you have made but you should also know that I will not give you my support on any wrong decision you have made (I will respect that)... Think wisely PLS, DRILL your brain and Think deep... Don't be feelings driven again...

(P.S. So here I stand fighting what I feel for you, Torn between what reason says and how I really feel) Is this how you feel??

Rainy day.....

Last night was so peaceful and quiet... I can hear wind rushing through the gap of the windows, rain drops falling, darken sky... I love rainy days especially rainy night, it makes me feel so peaceful and relax which i don't know why... My mind and soul are at peace, suddenly my mind just went empty and stop thinking about things... Things which i should have forgotten long time ago, things i should not be thinking until now and so on... A feeling i never felt before...

Darken sky, rainy night
Gushing wind, falling rain
Cease the thinking, cease the sight
Empty mind, empty words
Embrace the wind and night
Feel the peace and silence
Heed the calling from up above
Hear the words of silent night

The thing about LOVE...

After such a long time of resting and recollecting my thoughts, I have finally composed a brand new poem... Don't be misunderstand, it has nothing to do with me... This is how it goes...

Entering a place I shouldn't have
Taking something I shouldn't own
Angel & demon are in the way
Saying things that I never knew
Blinded by the love & care you gave
Drowning me deep like no others could
Knowing the consequences of this forbidden love
Fear & hesitation holds me so
Yet I moved forward with no regrets
Waiting for miracle which never comes
Am I naive or brave
Advises & guidance were given
Yet it guides me no where
Only endless thinking & hoping
Beautiful disaster, yes you are
Will I succumb or withdraw
Good Lord, you're there
Please lead the way, I answered........